Post by Raid on Aug 31, 2008 16:56:37 GMT -8
Helpless. Hopeless. Lost.
Trudging through the forest he once knew so well, though now he had no idea where he was. He wasn’t paying attention. For one of the only times in his life, he felt vulnerable, weak. For one of the only times in his life, he was faced with an obstacle he had no idea how to pass.
For the first time in his life, Death was defeated.
He sank to his knees, wiping away the tears that streaked his face. How could I sink so low? He wondered. How could I let this happen? How could I let my emotions get the better of me? How could I let myself get so attached? And how could I let them go so easily?
Thoughts bounced around in his head as he planted his hands into the damp ground. He was alone, totally, indefinitely, alone. He had never minded being alone before. At first, he had had a wall around him, protecting him and his heart. Then he started to feel connections, even though he was by himself. Connections to Sin, Shiekron, Kat. They ate away at the wall around him, but that was okay. He could depend on them.
Now, Sin was dead, killed by his brother’s own selfishness. Shiekron was God knows where, doing God knows what.
And Kat wasn’t his anymore.
Leaving him lost, broken, vulnerable and exposed. He shivered. It was a cold night, he thought as he looked up at the moon. And he was left virtually naked to it.
He shook his head madly with anger and desperateness, lying down on his back as he did. He closed his eyes, feeling himself slip away, fully ready for it to be the death he was all too familiar with that he slipped into, instead of sleep. Half-hoping it was.
Trudging through the forest he once knew so well, though now he had no idea where he was. He wasn’t paying attention. For one of the only times in his life, he felt vulnerable, weak. For one of the only times in his life, he was faced with an obstacle he had no idea how to pass.
For the first time in his life, Death was defeated.
He sank to his knees, wiping away the tears that streaked his face. How could I sink so low? He wondered. How could I let this happen? How could I let my emotions get the better of me? How could I let myself get so attached? And how could I let them go so easily?
Thoughts bounced around in his head as he planted his hands into the damp ground. He was alone, totally, indefinitely, alone. He had never minded being alone before. At first, he had had a wall around him, protecting him and his heart. Then he started to feel connections, even though he was by himself. Connections to Sin, Shiekron, Kat. They ate away at the wall around him, but that was okay. He could depend on them.
Now, Sin was dead, killed by his brother’s own selfishness. Shiekron was God knows where, doing God knows what.
And Kat wasn’t his anymore.
Leaving him lost, broken, vulnerable and exposed. He shivered. It was a cold night, he thought as he looked up at the moon. And he was left virtually naked to it.
He shook his head madly with anger and desperateness, lying down on his back as he did. He closed his eyes, feeling himself slip away, fully ready for it to be the death he was all too familiar with that he slipped into, instead of sleep. Half-hoping it was.